I had a dream…

Just when I thought I was about to graduate from nursing school, I found out that I didnt succeed in my last semester final project. In order to graduate, you have to pass it. During my 4 years of nursing, I have always had hurdles to overcome because of my deafness and my hijab. Teachers and nurses were harsh and unfair to me, always, no jokes. But I  was so determine to prove myself to people that I can achieve it no matter what. I was wrong, I was burned out that I did not want to come back and redo it again. We could say I gave up or I failed myself or I can say Allah knows better what’s good for me and what’s not. I’ve been wronged and I’ve never been this angry in my life. It took me a lot of time to let it go and accept it, cause that was my dream. It’s really hard when you live in a society that keep saying thinhs like :” Follow your dreams”, or “Don’t let anyone stop you from acheiving your dreams.” Wha happen with my case, what do I do? I’m pretty much traumatized by this experience that I’m certainly not coming back. Every time I think about it, my heart ache. I’ve lost 4 years of my life, I’ve waste so much money for this. But because I have faith, I know this is not for nothing, even if I  feel lost sometime. I know God has other plans for me. I probably became a stronger person and more resilient I guess. Trials develop our character. When we face them, we learn to live a better and simplier life and problems seem to be smaller. There is always worse. I lost a dream, but people loses a child or a close parent every day. Al hamdulilah for everything.

I love this quote from Helen Keller:
” Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them; but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight.” photo (1)

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